My Surgery Update

For those who know me and for those whom it may concern, I have surgery on my eyes on March 4th. I was diagnosed with Ocular torticollis. When I tilt my head one eye looks straight, while the other eye looks the other way. To correct this, I tilt my head so both of my eyes are lined up correctly. But now I am going to have surgery on my eyes, so I don't have to tilt my head anymore. The surgery is going to correct that,and I also have strabismus, which is a condition where the eye muscle is too strong causing my other eye to turn, and my surgery is going to correct that as well.

For those who don't know me, I was born with an Cleft lip and Cleft palate. I had many surgeries before since I was a baby and up till now. I had recent surgeries on my lip, nose, and jaw. The most recent one was the jaw; my orthodontist thinks that I would need another surgery on my jaw though, because my bite isn't straight, and they need that corrected so he can do more orthodontic work. So I might have another Jaw surgery, coming up (which there be update on that soon).

My family and I would really appreciate it if you keep us in your prayers!! Pray that my surgery would go well, and that Gods hand will be on us through out this time, and of course pray for my upcoming surgeries as well.

Tabitha Reilly

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At Your Feet: by Casting Crowns

Monica Bellucci stars as Mary Magdalene in Mel Gibson’s latest drama The Passion of Christ - 2004 Photos

Here at Your feet, I lay my past down
My wanderings, all my mistakes down
And I am free

Here at Your feet, I lay this day down
Not in my strength, but in Yours I've found
All I need, You're all I need

Jesus, Jesus, at Your feet
Oh, to dwell and never leave
Jesus, Jesus, at Your feet
There is nowhere else for me
There is nowhere else for me

Here at Your feet, I lay my future down
All of my dreams, I give to You now
And I find peace, I find peace
Here at Your feet, I lay my life down
For You my King, You're all I want now
And my soul sings…

‘Cause I am free (here at Your feet)
All I need (is at Your feet)
I find peace
We're at Your feet
We're at Your feet

And I am free (here at Your feet)
All I need (is at Your feet)
I find peace
We're at Your feet
We're at Your feet
We're at Your feet
We're at Your feet

Here at Your feet
I lay my life down

Some Will Seek Forgiveness While Others Escape: by Underoath

This is an amazing song, the music video has pictures from the Passion of Christ video. When ever I see the crucifixion, it makes me want to cry; sometimes and can't even look upon seeing my savior being crucified, even though it is just an actor acting out the role of His crucifixion. It is amazing what God did on the cross...it still breaks me...

Who ever is reading this...please don't, DON'T take what God did for you on Calvary for granted. I'm serious guys, what He did, we don't deserve, but he loved us sooo much that He just had to do it, there was no other way...but you know what? He is alive, He is sooo very much alive!!! And He conquered sin and death for us...who are we to doubt His love for us??

Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to condemn you...I am guilty of this too, I have doubted God so many times...some times I get sooo mad God that I wish that "He and the devil would just leave me alone..." but He won't...He is not like that...He is not the one to just leave and forsake you, He is waiting for you to notice Him. His arm are still open wide...

The Jesus Painter

This is a video of another artist, he is a painter known as the Jesus Painter. He is an amazing painter, I saw him live at church once. He painted a picture, though I don't remember what it was called. I think it is amazing how people could use art to glorify God, I love that!!! I want to live my life to glorify God, I hope He would use my future career to be a nurse to glorify Him. I want to encourage anyone who would be reading this to glorify God in everything you do, whether it is small like just simply doing your homework, or being active in school by reaching out to students for Christ; or big things like being on a mission field in an other country or just starting a ministry here in America.



You can go see some of his painting at his website: http://www.jesuspainter.com

A Portrait of Jesus

The gentleman who drew this is Joe Castillo. He went to Asbury Theological Seminary.

He did this during a chapel service. It was fascinating - he told the Gospel story - each part of Jesus' life - and he was drawing the story as he told the story.
We didn't realize until the end what the entire picture was..
A rare talent!

The 'longer' you look at this picture, the 'more' you see..




Look at the lines the artist used to draw this picture of Christ...
It is of scenes from Christ's life.

Beautiful Scars

You're beautiful scars are many
Your hands made them bleed
They tell a story of painful memories
That seem to never end
And I wish I could make the pain stop
But only time it will mend
You have to fight...
You have to try...
Oh I know you are strong
Please don't let them win
Don't give in

I wish I could heal the pain that you feeling now
But it is too much I can bear
To see your Beautiful scars
Is like watching you die
I wish I can tell you everything is going to be alright
But I know it is not...
And all I can do is to tell you to fight...
'Cause the pain in side is tearing you apart
It beats you down...
But you have to remain strong
You can overcome this bitter rain
Victory is yours in the One
Could I make you see that...
He is the mender of all wounded hearts

His heart was pierced by a sword
Blood and water flows out
His battle cry is the ending of his life
But when he rises
The dead will see...
And they shall live...

Will you pick up your sword and fight?
Please don't be scared
I know it is hard...
But it will get easier I promise
'Cause I am a lesser known
Who fought her fight
And is fighting now...
'Cause I'm not giving in...
I'm not giving up
Come pick up your sword...
Don't give in...
Your beautiful scars
Are reminders of Him
And He will carry you through
If you trust Him to...


This is a poem I dedicated to a dear friend of mine. She was a girl I was ministering to, when I was involved in the group "to write love on her arms". I'm not part of the group anymore, I found out that I needed to help myself, before I could take part in a big ministry like that. I found out that I wasn't ready to be apart of an ministry right now, because I had to take care of my own emotional needs and it was also getting in the way of my focus on my studies. Cadence (though it is not her real name) is the girl in this poem, she is a girl who cuts herself because she is hurting so bad. She tells me that her family doesn't care for her and that her father abuses her. And she doesn't believe in God because, he hasn't answered her prayers or delivered her from this pain, nor has she sought help from other professionals.

But this poem is me telling her to be strong and fight, to not give up...and to trust in God, because even though He may be silent, I believe that somehow...in a strange way God used me to tell her that he is still there and is still fighting for her. Though, I wouldn't say God wanted me to be a part of a ministry like "to write love on her arms", because he said in his word that he wouldn't let us go through something that he knew that we couldn't handle, and right now I couldn't handle taking part of a ministry like "to write love on her arms", at least not now.

Maybe if God willing he would let me return to this ministry or take part of another ministry, in the future. But right now I think God wants me to read in his word and to continue strengthening my own relationship with him. When I was involved in "to write love on her arms", the pain of the girls I was ministering to was overwhelming, and I couldn't take it in, I was still experiencing pain from my own family problems; though my family is doing alot better now, I still sometimes find it hard to let go of the pain...and that's why I couldn't be apart of this ministry. I have to let go of my own pain and heal, before I begin to minister to other wounded girls, 'cause if I stayed, my emotions would get in the way and I wouldn't be able to help them. These girls need professional help, people that would help them get through this pain and heal, and I feel I was just getting in the way. I am still ministering to Cadence though, but I am not going to be too much involved, I'm just going to be a friend and be there for her and encourage her to seek help. I think that is what God wants me to do right now.

Whoever reads this I would really appreciate it if you keep Cadence and the other girls in your prayers. And if you are a girl like Cadence, I encourage you to seek help, check out the ministry "to write love on her arms" () there are alot of caring people that are involved who would love to help you. I also encourage you to not give up and to keep fighting, you are strong, and you don't have to suffer this life alone. I love you guys!!

Lonley Wheel: by The Almost

In that room where you sit,
Where you live,
I know it's good to you
God, i know it's good to you
In your fear where you lay,
Where you think
It eases all the pain
All the pain of what you made

One last night at the lonely wheel
One last taste of the sin we feel
One hope in the fear that drives us on
One last drink to kill the pain
One last breath, before i say your name

I'm giving into you
I'm giving into you
If you could see in me
There is all you want
There is all you want

If you would just give in
It will get easier
It will get easier
(if you'd just give in it would get...)

One last night at the lonely wheel
One last taste of the sin we feel
One hope in the fear that drives us on
One last drink just to kill the pain
One last breath before we say your name

I'm giving into you
I'm giving into you
I get it, i need to fall
I get it, i need to call
Me and who i am are so in the way
Me and who i am, we are so in the way


One last night at the lonely wheel
One last taste of the sin we feel
One hope in the fear that drives us on
One last drink just to kill the pain
One last breath before we say your name

I'm giving into you
I'm giving into you

One last night at the lonely wheel
One last breath before we say your name

I'm giving into you
I'm giving into you...

Aaron Gillespie Amazing Testimony