Happy New Years!!!:-)

Hey everybody!
I can't believe that it is almost 2010, it seems like time flies by fast. It doesn't seem that long ago when I graduated high school and started my first semester at Valencia East Community College. I am excited for the knew year! This new year is like a fresh beginning, a time to set some new goals for yourself, a time to accomplish. This is a new adventure, thank God that we are alive to see a new year take place. I have some new year revolutions that I want to share with you guys, here they are:

1) Grow Emotionally and Spiritually
2) Spend more time in Gods word and in prayer
3 Study for my drivers test so I can get my driving license
4) Practice driving
5) Pick up good study habits
6) Pass all my prep classes so I can start on my classes for my nursing major
7) cleaning up my room, and helping around the house more
8) To get out of my comfort zone and make friends
9) Reflect and Glorify Christ and all I do

(this is all I can think of right at the moment, but I'll come back to write more)
I would love to here from you guys and know what your revolutionary goals are, post them in my comments, or if they are personal you can write them in your journal (I understand).

Tabitha:)

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Merry Christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!:)
"Glory to God in the highest, on earth peace, good will toward men."

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Momento Mori

"Greater Love has no one than this, that He lay down His life for His friends."

-John 15: 13

"Fill this space idle words

I'm scared to death of light and silence

Jesus kill me inside this

Raise me up to live again

Like you did, like you did..."

-In The Dark\Flyleaf

"The Christians who refuse to look squarely in to the suffering of Christ are not Christians at all. They are a breed of pretenders, who would turn their backs on the cross and shame his death. You cannot hold up the cross, nor drink the cup without embracing the death. And you cannot understand love, unless you first die." -Tedd Dekkar

Those who don't know what Momento Mori means, it means "you must die". This past Sunday my pastor preached a sermon that made me feel that God was speaking directly to me, and I want to share it with you guys. The sermon was about having obedience towards God, and having the attitude of Christ.

My pastor pointed out some example that Jesus made for us while He was on earth. One of them was the example He made at Gethsemane, when He was praying before his crucifixion. Jesus cried out to God the Father saying, "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done." You may think, "Jesus was God, why is He praying this?"; well, I believe that He was setting an example of how we should surrender ourselves to God.

It is hard to surrender ourselves to God, but it also hard for Jesus. He was both man and God, and he wrestled with God before his crucifixion. I think he might of wished that there was another way, but there wasn't. So he submitted Himself to God by saying let your will be done. God understands that life is difficult and that we often doubt Him. But He wants us to trust Him with our pain. I believe bad things happen for a reason; that God has a purpose in the midst of our trials, though I don't understand what his purpose is but I try to trust him with my life. I want to encourage you to do the same thing. God has a plan for you not to hurt you, but to give you a hope and a future. When life become difficult, I challenge you to just tell God It is well, let your will be done in my life.

God calls us to carry our cross and to die to ourselves. The Apostle Paul says in Galatians 2: 20, "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. " To die to yourself means to surrender, to be set apart from the world and to be like Christ. We as Christians are supposed to be reflections of Christ.

Another example God has made for us was when He washed His disciples feet. He is God, the king of the universe and He knelt down to wash His disciples feet. He was showing us the example of how we are supposed to act like a servant, by serving other before ourselves.We are supposed to live a life that is selfless; we are supposed to have the mind and attitude of Christ. Jesus lived a life helping the poor and needy, healing the sick, and reaching out to the sinners. We are supposed to live that life; helping people who are in need and telling the lost of the good news of Jesus Christ. We are born to serve God, to be his hands and feet. We serve God by serving others, by doing everything for the glory of Christ; like homework, or when we go to school, or go to work, help our parents or whomever we live with clean around the house. Were supposed to do all of that for the glory of God, isn't that awesome?

My pastor also talked about loving your enemies or loving the people you don't get along with. (Check out "What does it mean to love our enemies") That's hard, I know--because it is hard for me to love my enemies also. But God set an example of that by sending His one and only son to die for our sins. He could of not chosen to love us; but he wanted to love us, even though sometimes we turn our backs on him, or disobey him--He still loves us, despite our flaws.

I was named after the Tabitha in the Bible, you know the one that God through the Apostle Peter raised from the dead? I want to be like that, but it's different; Tabitha was sick and she died because of her illness. But, I want to die, I want Jesus to kill me. Not literally die, but I want Him to take away my selfishness, my ugly wretched part of me, my sin. I want to be raised from the dead like Jesus, to be a new person. John the Baptist said that God, You will increase, but I will decrease, or meaning --it's not about me but about You God.

I want to challenge you to read a "Call to die", by David Nassar. It is an 40 day devotional, where fast for forty days. You don't have to fast your lunch or breakfast, or dinner; but you can fast Internet, TV, listening to music, talking on the phone, anything. Just pray about, ask God what He wants you to do. You don't have to even fast, I just encourage you to pick up the cross and come and join me in this quest to follow Christ. Momento Mori...

Tabitha

Don't Quit

"Don't quit when the tide is lowest
For it's just about to turn
Don't quit over doubts and questions
For there's something you may learn.

Don't quit when the night is darkest
For it is just awhile 'til dawn
Don't quit when you run the farthest
For the race is almost won.

Don't quit when the hill is steepest
For your goal is almost nigh
Don't quit for you're not a failure
Until you fail to try.
-Jill Wolf

Don't Give Up!

For my ASL class I had to interact with deaf people and write an essay about my experience. I emailed my old ASL high school teacher, and asked her if she knew of any deaf events. She told me that she was signing in a Christmas program at her church with people who are deaf and some hearing people are signing with her too. She also said that they are practicing on Tuesdays and Saturdays, so yesterday I went to her practice for the program. She introduced me to an deaf man, and I interviewed him.

I have to be honest, at first--I didn't want to go, because I felt that I wasn't ready, and that I wasn't comfortable with my signing. I mean, I was just learning and I hardly don't even know how to communicate in sign language very well. But I think I did pretty fine, my old sign language teacher helped me. And plus I felt pretty comfortable talking to this guy, because he reminded me of my grandfather some how.

Sam, the guy I interviewed, really encouraged me last night, and I am grateful for that. He told me to not give up. At first, earlier yesterday, I told my sister that I was really concerned about my ASL class. I wasn't doing well in that class, I got B's and C's on my tests, which isn't a really bad grade, and I got D's and F's on my quizzes. And my teacher doesn't look at my homework or even go over it, and it was hard for me. I did have an ASL tutor, and that helped a lot. But I was still concerned about the class, I feared that--What if I don't pass? Then I 'd fail, get an F for a grade, and have to take the class all over again. But just hearing Sam say that--don't give up, it really brought hope that maybe I would pass the class, with at least a C.

That also gave me the strength to keep going and to keep my eyes on the goal. And, that's what I want to encourage you tonight. If you are struggling in your high school/or college class, or even at your job; I want to say the same thing that Sam told me--Don't give up! Keep your eyes on the goal. Don't quit running the race, you got to finish that race, holding your torches high. You can do it, I believe in you, and most of all, God believes in you. For in the Bible it did say that he is your confidence, your strength in your weakness. So, today I encourage you--please don't give up, 'cause God hasn't given up on you. This life is a race worth winning, when you know that you have a strong God by your side. I encourage you to put your trust in Him, because He loves you with no end. He fought for you, I just want to ask you, is it worth it to do same for Him? I love you guys, and I hope someone will read this someday and be encouraged.

Philippians 4: 13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Galatians 6: 9
Let's not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not give up.

2 Timothy 4: 7
I have fought the fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

A Picture by Ron Page

For those who don't know Ron, he is a friend of my old sign language teacher. This picture is origonally from an Sign Language celebration at my high school. I was signing a song, though now I don't quite remember what song I was signing in that picture. Ron took a picture of me while I was signing, and he posted my picure in front of a beautiful sunrise. The poem on the picture is actually a poem I wrote, and Ron posted it on the picture. I hope you enjoy, I was just so exited to share it with you guys. :)

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Happy Thanksgiving

Hey guys, I hope you had a great thanksgiving. I know I did! Thanksgiving has always been a holiday that expresses what we are thankful for. I love thanksgiving, because it is a reminder to be thankful for the things that God has blessed us with. Here are a few things that I am thankful for:

* I am thankful for God and for what He has done for us on the cross. I'm thankful for the love He has shown and lavished on us. The fact that, while we were still sinners, God sent His Son to die for our sins, even though we don't deserve it.

* I am thankful for all the surgeries that I have gone through. That the doctors could fix my cleft lip and palate. And that God was there through it all.

* I am thankful for the fact that I graduated high school.Because when I was still in high school, I doubted that I'd even graduate. You see, I was diagnosed with an learning disability, Attention deficit disorder (ADD); and I struggled a lot in high school. I was in special classes mostly all through out grade school, middle school, and part of high school. I was then, put in regular classes somewhere in my middle years of high school. I worked very hard at school that sometimes me and my grandmother would struggle through home work. But I made it, I graduated this past summer, on June 6, 2009.

* I am thankful for my dad and my grandparents, who have been there for me throughout the years and helped me succeed to in high school. And they supported me when I had to go through multiple surgeries. I am thankful for thier love and devotion for me and my sister.

* I am thankful for my best friend and my sister, Debra. She encouraged me on the times when I really struggled, and she has always been there for me.

* I am thankful for the Campus Crusade group at my college. They have really helped strengthen my relationship with God. And they have made me welcome in college. And I am so glad that God has put them in a secular college, just to be a light in the darkness, and reach out to those who are hurting, and tell the good news of Jesus Christ.

* And I am thankful that I am alive, and that I have food, clothes and shelter.

I believe it is important to remember what we are thankful for, because sometimes we tend to take things for granted. I really hope that you guys remembered to thankful for the blessings you have,because really we are blessed. Many countries, like Africa and India have families that are poor. And many don't have food, clothes, or even a roof over thier head. I am thankful for the organizations, such as Campus Crusade for Christ, Wycliffe Bible Translations, World Vision, and Faceless International. These organizations have helped many countries around the world, by giving them food and clothes, and sharing the gospel of Christ. I would love to hear from you guys, you can tell me what you are thankful for by comment or emailing me at tabitha_reilly@bellsouth.net. Love you guys, and have a Happy Thanksgiving! :) Tabitha

Beautiful Bride: by Flyleaf

"Beautified diversity
Functioning as one body
Every part encouraged by the other
No one independent of another
You're irreplaceable, indispensable
You're incredible
You're incredible

(Chorus)
Beautiful bride
Body of Christ
One flesh abiding
Strong and unifying
Fighting ends in forgiveness
Unite and fight all division
Beautiful bride

Strengthen your arms now
Train your fingers for battle
Urgency's here now
Train your fingers for battle
Fighting this violence
With your feet wrapped in peace
Sad tears and silence
Now screams of joy
Victory

(Chorus)
Beautiful bride
Body of Christ
One flesh abiding
Strong and unifying
Fighting ends in forgiveness
Unite and fight all division
Beautiful bride

Beautiful bride
Body of Christ
One flesh abiding
Strong and unifying

We're not gonna fall and forget
How far You went to pick us up
If one part's hurt the whole body's sick
If one part mourns we all mourn with Him
Rejoice, we'll sing with you
Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah

(Chorus)
Beautiful bride
Body of Christ
One flesh abiding
Strong and unifying
Fighting ends in forgiveness
Unite and fight all division
Beautiful bride

Beautiful bride
Body of Christ
One flesh abiding
Strong and unifying
Fighting ends in forgiveness
Unite and fight all division
Beautiful bride

Beautiful bride
Body of Christ
One flesh abiding
Strong and unifying
Fighting ends in forgiveness
Unite and fight all division
Beautiful bride"

Listen to this song, it is an amazing song . You can listen to it at www.imeem.com, The song is from Flyleaf's new album Momento Mori

True Faith-Anberlin

Hello Guys, I finally figured out how to embed a video from youtube onto my blog page.
So now you can listen to anberlin's new single, True Faith, without leaving my blog page. I hope you enjoy!

Tabitha

My Chinese Zodiac

Thursday, at my college, it was the International Education Day, where college students set up booths and share different things from different countries around the world. One of the countries was China, the booth had papers that had info about different Chinese zodiac's. For those who were like me when they saw on their profile a Chinese Zodiac, and had no idea what it was, I'll give you a short definition.

A Zodiac is an origin of astrology. For years, astrology has played a significant role in Chinese Culture. The Zodiac is a depiction on a Chinese calendar of 12 different animals. The animals represent the 12 year cycle of the Chinese lunar calendar, which was built on the foundation of astronomy, and Chinese astrology.

When a Chinese girl at the booth asked me what year I was born, she gave me a paper that showed my Chinese Zodiac. So now I know what a zodiac is and I have the meaning of my Chinese zodiac. My zodiac was a snake, I personally wished it was a horse though. Anyways, according to what the paper says about my zodiac it says that whoever is born on the year of 1941-2001(I am born in 1989), they are intelligent people, graceful, and materialistic. They don't jump into situation, and they are effective at getting what they want. They also say that we are excellent seducers. We are the ones who decide when a relationship has potential and when it does not. We are very insecure, jealous, and obsessive. It is important that no one betrays ones trust or they will seek revenge.

Remember We are being compared with an snake, these are the snake's personalities. I don't agree with my zodiac, it kinda makes me wonder what they say about the horse. I am not persuasive, and I am definitely not a seducer, or obsessive. Although the Bible says that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I don't think I am attractive. Those who know me, know that I don't have a boyfriend, and I don't really remember when was the last time a guy was attracted to me. Don't get me wrong though, I do believe in what the Bible says about me. And I am working on not worrying about what people think about me, because of my birth defect and my pimples. In fact, I am a lot better at that, I hardly care what people think about my appearance. Besides I am not in a dating relationship, I want to pay more attention to my studies. I think having a boyfriend, can be distractive, so I prefer to wait till maybe after college, or when I get my schedule in order.

And for the part that says that I am effective at getting everything I want, that is not true. I don't always have my own way, in fact, I rather keep it that way. I want to try to not think entirely about myself and what I want. I want to think about others and be a blessing in their lives. I rather give than receive, like helping those who are in need.

I am not vengeful, at least I am not perfect, and I try not to be that way. The Bible says that vengeance belongs to God. The bible says that it is important for a Christian to have the mind and attitude of Christ. I try to reflect Christ, by having the right attitude towards people, and to not hold a grudge against anyone and be forgiving. but it is hard to be that way,like I said I am far from perfection. But that's when you ask God to help you, to give you self control\and self discipline. That's when you let God love through you, 'cause He is the only one who can truely love unconditionally and who can forgive and take away your sins.

There are a few things, I admit, that I agree with, I like to think of myself as someone who is intelligent and smart. The thing that really makes my day is having a sense of accomplishment. it always makes you feel good when you succeed at something. Anyways, I'm afraid, I have to wrap things up, it is now 10: 48, and I still have a lot of Homework I need to do tomorrow. so I have to get ready for bed. Good night, I hope you enjoyed your weekend. Love,

Tabitha

Why The Cross?

Today, before I went to my reading class, me and my sister read from an devotional called my "Utmost For His Highest". Today's devotional was about God's amazing forgiveness and love for us. Have you ever wondered what He would do if Jesus didn't have to die on the cross? Have you wondered what would of happened? these were the thoughts that ran through my mind while I was listening to my sister read from the devotional.

I find it mysterious--sometimes I can't even comprehend why, why Jesus, the son of the creator of the universe, had to die an horrible death that he did not deserve? The Bible says in Galatians 3:13-"Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse, for it is written: 'Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tree.'" You see, we are the ones that are cursed, not God; He is without sin, he is perfect. In Galatians 3:10, it says-"Cursed is everyone who does not continue to do everything written in the Book of the Law." But God loved us so much that He chose to send His son to die for us, Jesus loved us so much that he chose to take our place. God knew that if he didn't send His only son to die for us, we would be separated from him forever...in hell.

Hell was not meant for us, it was meant for the devil and his fallen angels.When Adam and Eve sinned in the garden of Eden, the whole world became corrupt. But, God wanted us back; He loved us so much, that He wanted so bad, for us to repent and to confess our sins and be forgiven. I also learned in today's devotional that, it is not enough to just say sorry. God knows us better than that, remember he created us in his own image...Don't you think God cares that we disobey Him? The Bible says in Joel 2:13-"Rend your heart and not your garments. Return to the Lord your God, for He is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and He relents from sending calamity."

He wants us to come to Him broken hearted, torn for what we have done. That's the beauty of grace! When you come and confess your sins and rend, God will heal you--you will be forgiven. You see if we just sorry, it wouldn't mean anything, because God know our hearts and our minds, he knows that we'll sin again. He wants an repented heart...a torn repented heart.

God knows we're not perfect, that we would keep sinning, but He will make away out of temptation. In Hebrews 2:18 it says that-"Because He Himself suffered when He was tempted, He is able to help those who are being tempted." This is another thing that is hard to comprehend; God is Without sin, how can He be tempted? It is true He is without sin, but He is also fully man and fully God. When Jesus, came to earth as a man, He was tempted in every way that we are tempted, just to show us that He can provide us a way out of our temptation. We are not alone, He understands, and He is willing to help us escape the enemy's chains. In 2 Corinthians 12:9 it says-"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." He is our strength, so we can overcome.

I am praying for you guys, I hope God uses this to bless you. I am in school now and I have to go, my next class starts at 11:30, and now it is now 11:25. You can email me, my email is on the blog just look for my picture and below it, it has a little about me and a link that says you can find out more. bye

Tabitha Reilly

True Friendship

"Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up." - Bible: Ecclesiastes

"No greater love has no one than this, that he would lay his life down for his friends."
- John 15:13

God has blessed me with friends this year on my first semester of college. I think it is really important to cherish your friends, because they come and go, and you never know if you'll ever see them again. I think a true friend is someone who you can trust; and accept you as who you are, no matter where your from. A friend is someone who lifts you up when you fall, who would tell you that you've done something wrong in a loving way. Who would forgive you, and not hold a grudge. Who would stand up for you when others tries to tear you down. A friend is someone who will love you no matter what.

I want to try to be that friend to my new friends, though I am not perfect. I can't be there for them all the time, but I can at least tell them of a friend that will never leave them. That is Jesus! I want to try to be a reflection of Jesus to my friends, and to other people that I associate with.

Who ever is reading this blog, I want you to know that if you have any questions, or if you have any prayer requests, you can email me at tabitha_reilly@bellsouth.net I'll try to answer back, though I am not very good at keeping in touch with people, but I Want to at least try to be there for you guys. Love, Tabitha :)

What does it mean to love your enemies?

"But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you..."
-Matthew 5:44

"Many that live deserve death. And some die that deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then be not too eager to deal out death in the name of justice, fearing for your own safety. Even the wise cannot see all ends."

— J. R. R. Tolkien,


Many of us find it hard to love our enemies, I know I have. It is a difficult concept to grasp. It is easier to hate our enemies and want nothing to do with them. Why should we want anything to do with them? They hurt us, and then they apologize, and do it again. Their apologies mean nothing to us. But God calls us to love our enemies,and treat them as we would like them to treat us. There is a verse in the Bible that says that when we show an act of kindness that is undeserved to an enemy, it is like heaping hot coals on their heads. I think that verse is saying that when we love the people who persecute us or hurt us and show them the love of Christ through our actions, When they see that in us it motivates them to want to change.

I know it is hard to understand, but please bear with me, I don't fully understand this either. But I do believe that it is something that we cannot do by our own strength. Only God can love unconditionally. After all, he did send his Son to die for us. And Jesus could of sent a host of angels to rescue him, but he chose to die for us because he loved us. We were nothing but sinners who deserve to die and rot in hell. But he loved us so much that he showered his grace on us.

So shouldn't we do the same? I'm not saying to accept the sin, to accept the abuse. What I am trying to say is hate the sin, but love the sinner. Show the grace of God through your love towards them. I know it is a hard thing to do? It's easier to tell them to burn in hell. Believe me, if I went by my emotions, I would tell my enemy just that. But Jesus didn't, he loved the sinner. When he was on earth as a man, he spent his entire time trying to reach out to the sinners. He said in Matthew 9:12,that "It is not the healthy that need a doctor but the sick." If he said to every one to burn in hell, he would of destroyed the human race along time ago. But he didn't he chose to love us even though we don't deserve it.

Please try to understand, it is just something that is on my heart. I struggle with the same issue, I live in a home that is broken and probably will never be whole again. My mother has a mental illness,and by her actions our family is in pain. There are times when I can't love my mom, but that is when I have to ask God to love her through me. I am just encouraging you to do the same. For we as Christian's are supposed to have the mind and attitude of Christ.That what "Christian" means, little christ. We are supposed to reflect Christ in our lives, in everything we do.

If you are not a Christian and you are reading this; I want you to know that you can experience God's unconditional love for you today and even right now. All you have to do is confess your sins and believe that Jesus Christ died for you, and rose again.

-Tabitha

Run The Race

"Not that I already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." -Philippians 3: 12-14

God's Most Beautiful Creation

If there is a God, why do bad things happen?

This is an Essay I wrote for my writing class. I wrote the essay in this topic because my heart reaches out to you guys, and I know that many of you asked this question before. I want you guys to know that, yes, God is real and suffering does happen, but things happen for a reason. Jeremiah 29: 11 says that he has a plan for you, not to hurt you,but to give a hope and future.

"We regard God as an airman regards his parachute; it's there for emergencies but he hopes he'll never have to use it."
— -C.S Lewis (The Problem of Pain)

This is a question that a lot of people ask, when something tragic, or horrid happens in their lives. We all struggle with doubts, even Christians do. We ask, “Why do bad things happen to good people, or why do we suffer?”, “Is God listening or does he even care?” We tend to think that if there is a God, he is just a big man upstairs. We tend to think that God has forsaken us and he stopped loving us.

Do we realize that God is just calling us back to him? He wants us to know him, to have an intimate relationship with him. We are like the Israelites who go our own way when life is good. But when something bad happens, we turn and cry out to God for mercy, to save us.

C.S Lewis compares God, with a parachute. An airman keeps his parachute with him in the airplane, just in case of emergencies. But he goes on to say that he hopes that he’ll never use it. We, in the same way, know that there is pain but we hope we’ll never deal with pain. But why is there pain? Why do we suffer sometimes? I think God allows us to experience pain, because it makes us realize that we need him, and in a way it makes us want to seek after God.

But we don’t like pain; we think it is God punishing us. Well maybe, maybe that could be true; perhaps God can use pain as a punishment. There are times in the Bible, God allowed the Israelites to suffer, because they turned there backs on him. But the reasons why he allowed the Israelites to suffer, was because he wanted them to realize they sinned and confess their
sins and repent. It says in 2 Chronicles 7: 14:

“If my people who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and forgive their sins and heal their land.”

Our sinful nature is not the only reason why we suffer, there are other reasons to, I don’t know why, so I can’t explain. We suffer now, but God promises when he takes those who accept his son Jesus as their Lord and Savior, and believe in him, they’ll live in heaven with eternal life. Heaven is a place where there is no suffering or pain; and though we may not understand why we suffer, God will make known to us everything so we may not need to understand why. We just need to believe and trust God.


Again: A song from the band Flyleaf

"I love the way that your heart breaks
with every injustice and deadly fate
Praying it all be new
and living like it all depends on you

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

I love that you’re never satisfied
with face value wisdom and happy lies
you take what they say and go back and cry
you’re so close to me that you nearly died

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

they don’t have to understand you
be still
wait and know I understand you
be still
be still

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
The floodgates are breaking
and pouring out

Here you are down on your knees
trying to find air to breathe
I love you please see and believe again

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Right where I want you to be again
See and believe!"

My Obituary

My Obituary
Mon, 08/24/2009

I want people to remember me by the way I have acted, the way I had shown Christ in me through my actions and my attitude. I admit that I don't always act the way I should, and I don't always have a good attitude, but it is just something I have to work on. I feel that it is important to act in such a way that people know that you belong to Christ---that you're different. Because you never know, you may be the only Bible that people will ever read. If people see you as a hypocrite then how will they ever know the truth? The Bible says that you're supposed to have the mind, and the attitude of Christ, we're supposed to reflect Jesus in everything we do. Here are some verses that really moved me:

Philippians 3: 12-14
"Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."

Hebrews 4: 11-13
"Let us therefore be diligent to enter that rest, lest anyone fall according to the same example of disobedience. For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any double edged sword, piercing even to the divisions of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. And there is no creature hidden from his sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of him to whom we must give account."

Philippians 4: 15-16
Therefore let us, as many as are mature, have this mind; and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal even this to you. Nevertheless, to the degree that we have already attained, let us walk by the same rule, let us be of the same mind."

Romans 12: 1-2
"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies as living sacrifices, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."

Galatians 2: 20
"I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me, and the life to which I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the son of God, who loved me and gave himself to me."

Philippians 4:8
"Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy, meditate on these things."

1 John 3: 16- 20

"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. This then is how we know we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything."

Deuteronomy 30: 19-20

"I call heaven and earth as witnesses today against you, that I have set before you before you life and death, blessings and curse; therefore choose life, that both you and your descendants may live; that you may love the Lord your God, that you may obey his voice, and that you may cling to him, for he is your life and the length of your days; and that you may dwell in the land which the Lord swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, to give them."

I want to leave the kind of legacy that people will look at me and say wow I want to be like her someday. I always loved this song from Classic Crime called "Say the word", the chorus goes like this: "Are you different? Could I be Different too? 'Cause nobody knows you like I do..." I want people to say that of me--to want to be different because someone else was different. I want to be the person that has left a blessing on so many people, that inspired them to make a change--a difference. I want to leave a chain reaction of hope that we can make thing better in life.

I also want to be remembered as a person who never dropped her arms, who never gave up and reached her goal. I want to be the runner running the race holding her torch, and never looking back but towards the goal. I want to be remembered as a nurse who knew how to save a life. Who made a difference in little childrens lives. Who gave them a hope, and told them of a savior plans for them to have a hope and future.

When I graduate college I wanted to be a RN nurse, who helped little children that have a cleft lip and a cleft palate. I want that dream to be a part of that legacy.

I want to be remembered as not someone who was selfish and arrogant, but some one who is selfless--and who has touched the lives of others. I want to be remembered as a person who is loving and who is merciful--who forgives. But I can't be that because I'm not Jesus, I am not perfect. But he who has made a good work in me will make it perfected and complete when Jesus comes again. I also want to try to be like Jesus, though I can't do it on my own strength, but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. So, therefore I must try my best.