*Fin prt 1

Feels like you're miles from here,
in other towns with lesser names.
Where the unholy ghost doesn't tell
Mary or William exactly what they want to hear.
You remember the house on Ridge Road
told you and the Devil to both just leave me alone.
If this is salvation, I can show you the trembling.
You'll just have to trust me. I'm scared.

I am the patron saint of lost causes.
Aren't we all to you just near lost causes?
Aren't we all to you just lost

Tommy, you left behind
something that will mean everything right before you die.
What if you gained the whole world?
You've already lost four little souls from your life.
Widows and orphans aren't hard to find.
They're home missing daddy who's saving the abandoned tonight.
Wish your drinking would hurry and kill you.
Sympathy's better than having to tell you the truth.

That you are the patron saint of lost causes.
All you are to them is now a lost cause.
All you are to them is now, causes.

Billy, don't you understand?
Timothy stood as long as he could and now
you made his faith disappear.
More like a magician and less like a man of the cloth.
We're not questioning God.
Just those he chose to carry on His cross.
We're no better, you'll see.
Just all of us, the lost causes.

Aren't we all to you just lost causes?
Are we all to you lost?
Lost causes
So all we are to you,
Is all we are, is all we are
All we are is all we are

[Choir, repeated:]
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?

Take what you will, what you will
And leave. Could you kill, could you kill me
If the world was on fire
and nothing was left but hope or desire
And take all that I could require, is this love?
Or am I on the floor over-desperate?
Hold hands streaming of blood again?
And then take full weight of me
Guard my dreams, figure this out,
It's me on my own. Helpless, hurting, hell.
Will you stay strong as you promised?
Cause I'm stranded and bare.
Meanness is washed up and all that I have
is God. Take this and all,
Then grace takes me to a place
Of the father you never had
Ripping and breaking and tearing apart
This is not heaven
This is my hell.
"THE MEANING TO THE SONG:
After months of searching I have found the entire meaning of the song.
Here it is:
The whole song is 4 separate stories, personal experiences of Stephan Christian (lead singer) the first verse is about, as early as 8yrs old, he want nothing to do with God or Satan- (notice lyrics in the verse- "remember the house of ridge road, told you and the devil to just leave me alone"

In the 2nd verse, is a recollection, from his teen years, when his church was sure, that they were promised a miracle from God, but nothing happened, and that hindered his faith- but i cannot find any lyrics with relevance. but the 3rd, is also in the second verse. it is about a mentor, who used the "guise" of "mission's work" to leave his family in shambles, and from my knowledge, that means, he used the excuse or disguise of mission work to leave his family. notice- the line "wish your drinking would hurry and kill you" that's probably referring to his feelings against that mentor.

The most impacting and last small story is in the final verse,

The last verse is full of questions to the listener, who is billy? who is timothy. i have found the answer.
billy is a traveling 'healer' that crippled Stephan journey. That's all that was said about that, so, i connected the dots, timothy was representing Stephan- billy promise healing on Stephan, or most likely someone close to him, and he was a fake. Stephan says, this and many others have messed with his "salvation" and he wrestled with God for a long time,

and the last 2 minutes of talking/singing and confusing lyrics that no one is sure of, is all about the conclusion of his wrestle.
this is where the majority of the story come into play.
I'm pretty sure I have these lyrics in the video wrong - I KNOW

Take what you will, what you will
and leave could you kill could you kill me
if the world was on fire and nothing was left except hope or desire
and take all that i could require is this love?
or am i on the floor over desperate?
hold hands streaming of blood again?
and then take full weight of me
guard my dreams figure this out its me on my own helpless hurting hell
will you stay strong as you promised?
cause I'm stranded and bare
meaningless is washed up and all that I have is God take this and all. (this is where notes come in)
these lines-
then grace takes me to a place of the father you never had ripping and breaking and tearing apart- this line has so much. i think these lines refer to the final part of his wrestle with God, and that's what happened, God ripped, broke his strongholds down, this situation is "hell"- the hell that he says in his last line, "this is not heaven this is my hell" the process was hell, but after, he felt much better, and Stephan says in the end "God Won"
so their you have it."

thanks to whoever posted the meaning to this song, it really means alot to me. I am going to write about what my thoughts of the song and its meaning in another blog so stay tuned! ;)